For Amanda-Jayne...

One tends to think they know their own family better than anyone else, and that they can call and rely on said family no matter what the situation!!! This was the case with Amanda-Jayne!!!

If anyone knows Amanda-Jayne, they probably have a good idea of just what she's been dealing with over the last year and a half. It's been some really serious SHIT!!! She's been through a lot. She has needed tons of support along the way with decisions that she has had to make. One of the decisions, that I encouraged her to make, was to get her father involved.

She originally balked at the idea, but I was persistent and insisted that he needed to know the extent and severity of the subject matter. So she conceded and made the phone call explaining from beginning to end.

He was quite shocked at it all and said..."Of course, I will help you in any way that I can." So she explained in detail what she would like to happen. He then in turn, went ahead and executed what she asked him to do.

Now at this point, once everything took place, the situation came to a lull. It had been that way up till this morning.

Amanda-Jayne was awakened this morning very early and forced...AGAIN...to deal with the same looming situation...which brought her to tears and hurt AGAIN!!!

Now, Amanda-Jayne is a really strong woman...mentally and emotionally, and she was holding her own, until her father suddenly got involved in the conversation!!! Once this happened everything went down-hill...FAST!!!

At this point, she was totally blind-sided by her dad and his response...she had been betrayed by his actions and ultimately crushed. He in fact, did not back her up and went the completely opposite direction. This caused a major melt-down and from that moment on she was a river of tears.

She tried getting some clarification as to why he reacted the way he did, he responded by hanging up the phone on her not once, but twice. She was LIVID!!! She didn't know how to respond to this, other than ball her eyes out. It truly hurt seeing her this way and there was only so much that I could say and do...

As I write this now, all I want to do is hold her and comfort her...she has been through SO much!!! She remains a pillar in my life...we have been through A LOT together. She is my soul-mate until the end. I love her dearly and always will...this is for her!!! XXOO...jakey

How Do I Love Thee?
by Elizabeth Barrett Browning

How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.
I love thee to the level of every day's
Most quiet need, by sun and candlelight.
I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;
I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.
I love with a passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints, -- I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life! -- and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death.